STROMY XAAN

Where about a life begins
The certainty of it’s to end
Persuaded death,

In my life, I never praised
Neither sadness nor cursed
I always wished them the best
Best of whole
I praised, they shall attain their deserving
Happiness, Love, Goals and an esteem Life

But life, gave me all what
I never wanted see
Those of which I never dreamt of
Of all that I never expected

I am the unlucky one,
The one praised the happiness of all
Today pleading for own happiness
Suffering in sadness and pain
Unendurable pain

Are all these moments
Do they really deserve?
Sad, Tears, Pain and Loneliness

I was taught,
Whosoever wishes others to be happy
Gets their own happiness
And leads a bright life

But, life dragged me
And stood me in a point
Where about, no sight of beam
Only I can see is
Darkness,
Only I can feel is
Pain,

My life is ruined by,
The ones I loved most
The ones I praised to be happy

I am thankful to God
For this life,
‘Cause I am used to this now
I hate happiness and love
For myself

THE UNEXPECTED

The day I saw you
I never thought that
One day you will be mine
Holding me tightly

But fate made that happen
Life was so glorified
I cherished every second
Thoughts of you and me
Those moments we shared
Were the real reasons of the smirk, on my face

I dreamt a bright future
You and me
Dreamt of growing old together
And an eternal love
A flame that would never rancid

Your promises made me
To forget the rest of world
You were there for me
In sadness, in happiness
You understood me best

Your words were the sweetest
Which would comfort me
No matter how depressed
No matter how hard it is

I never thought that
One day you will leave me
Alone in this journey

But fate made that happen
Life really sucks, without you
I can’t endure anymore pain
Thoughts of you and me
Inflicts me most
Those moments we shared
Are the real reasons for my sadness

I can see you walking on my way
And the way you change
The rhythm of your steps
And the color of your face
Hurts me like hell

The flame of love you lit
Has now changed to a fire
That burns me alive

By coincidence, if I heard you now
My heart pounds unconditionally
Reminding me my past

My past, is now confusing me
What to expect and what not to
I am an abated soul
Living dead,

Fate brought and unexpected end to my expectations
And left me alone in the middle of the journey

Lets Get Together Again

My heart will, never call for anyone besides you
For long I live, my heart will constantly pound for you

My eyes longs to see you
My heart wishes to love you

How would I will ever be able utter you
What had gone thru my life?
I would have held the certainty in the very beginning

You never knew what the truth was
You heard from a stranger
And left me in pain and cold
Out of everything, you got a companion
Handsome, rich, a real duke

My hopes were renewed
The day you breached with your boyfriend
He left you, he deceived you

You want to forget him
You want to hate him
You said he really don’t care
HEHE, he never dared to wish you on your B’day
But you still love him

And it hurts me like hell
You share his story with me

I listen to you
Not because my heart permits
It aches, but
My heart won’t bear the pain
Me hurting you

I can see you in pain
Suffering in love of that that deceiver
He deceived you, but you still wait for him

You never wanted to look back
Look back at the love
You truly deserve

Nearly a decade passed
But still the love, still is the same
So fresh and pure

My heart beholds
No fracture for you
The few days you shared
Are cherished for eternity

The only thing that makes me
Smile, Cry, Happy and Sad
Are those memories you left

I prolong to see you,
Hold you in my arms,

I still love you
Would ever I be able to live in peace?

If ever life grants me a wish
I would wish to spare a second in your arms

Slow Tears

I look up

as a tear rolls slowly

down my cheek

I think about better days

and wonder if I’ll feel that way again

you look at me

with those eyes I know so well

always serious, so deep and insightful

as though you’re always in control

But not today

not now

Now you look so scared

like for once you don’t have the answer

I gaze at you

looking deep into those hazel eyes

Hoping to understand

why you’ve said those things you did

I wonder for a moment

if this is all a dream

if I shall wake in the morning

and be relieved

you look at me

with a confusion I have never seen

slowly pull me towards you

and wipe the tears from my cheek

Forever Written in My mind!

So many times..
I see you smile.
I see you cry.

That sweet smile.
I can not forget that smile.

Hear you laugh..
See you smile..
Hear you cry..

The noises and that smile..
For ever written in my mind, heart and soul..

I can not forget you.
I can not stop thinking of you.
Never.